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Dear Diary,
I feel weird today. I'm not exactly happy, not sad, kinda confused. I'm a little scared, a little worried, but still excited. The only time i felt like myself was when you went up to the chapel stage to receive your prizes. I don't know what to say to you, but i'm really happy. Like, i'm really really very very happy for you. I think you've really matured and changed, maybe cause of your long pants...well i don't know. Haha, the super chao ah beng you to the super studious guy that i know. I'm glad i forced you to study, whey, i'm not exactly saying i should get the credit. But, without you listening and knowing what you really want in life, i guess you wouldn't even be having two cheques. I'm glad that you finally thought through about what you want, understanding what both me and your parents really want for you, your goals, your dreams and working hard to prove it to everybody that you can do it. I'm really thankful for that...=)
Maybe i felt weird because i'm once again in a new environment, new people, new year, and....sheesh i don't know. I'm like floating right now. Exactly the same as this symbol ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~. I don't know what i'm thinking, and i'm typing a lot of i don't knows because i really don't know and am feeling super blank. I think blogging helps me a lot, cuz there's so many things that i wanna say but it just feels weird telling friends about it.
I'm glad to have my friends with me, Grace, Gladys, Joy, Evian,Josh, Jing Kai and a few othersssssss in class. But i just feel awfully weird because it's been pretty long since we're like that close again :/ GRRRRR I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SAYINGGGGG. I feel like there's seriously this imaginary wall between me and the rest, yes i miss them, the times, everything, hanging out, a lot a lot. It just feels very...crazy and weird suddenly. Everything's just going so fast for me. I can't catch up. I cannot accept it so quickly. I am really sensitive to the slightest actions or even words somebody might say, and honestly i feel kind of left out if i have to say that. Damn it, i miss Willi. At least i might feel fine and crazy like i always do when with him. Miss you, Bro ): Maybe 3 Faith will turn out to be a great class? I really hope so...oh well. I gotta finish up my work. Hope the stress won't start tomorrow. All this shit is stressing me out.
Love, Jerm.
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